nude & delicate

Apollonia M
LE PETIT TROU
(Warsaw, Poland)

sometimes im romantic
sometimes im soft and fragile
sometimes i dissolve in dreams and im loved by magic
i saw this bodysuit and it made me long for my lover
the utopic one that is
the one that stays and takes me on surprise getaways

that! i lived it when i saw Apollonia

so i put it on my wishlist, and 5 months later i'm waiting impatiently for FedEx to ring the doorbell.

i should know then to dream about love... never been very lucky

i get a broken black box by FedEx! i looked at it for so long just so sad and a little mad... only
to open it and find inside of it a black bow silk paper wrapped sweet smaller package

this one impeccable
and perfect
revealing yet another box, drawer like, black, sexy, protective and expensive
my heart is racing

love is rushing

this gift to myself is turning out to be magnificient

the Apollonia bodysuit
nude and ornamented with mini dots (loved the petits trous / the brand"s name), very high cut on the hips up to the waist and finished with small gold "o" rings for the tied straps. yes "o" rings. i love that so much also. i find it makes it seductive and adds to the delicate nature of the fabric.

It feels like you are wearing nothing at all.. It looks like you were body painted with shadows. Side breast, ribs and hip bones are supper exposed. but yet it feels sweet almost innocent in its exhibition.

Of course i moved in it, dancing, rolling, stretching. Everything stays in place if you adjust the straps properly. i find if you tie up enough it creates and empty space by the sacrum and underneath the breast that allows the light to give a visual sense of the quality of the fabric.

i love intelligent lingerie. this is one of them. surprising. comfortable, i felt cared for, in the finest of details, makes me wish i owned more pieces...

mon histoire d'O

Bonte Size 2
la fille d'O

(Belgium)

You know, when you wish upon every star you see, when you pray God and the Devil, when you full moon ritual and black and white magic for one particular thing. And somehow the stars align and you can actually hold the object of your desire in this realm. The anticipation becomes unbearably; you are sure to be disappointed. But you are not. Never even close.  And everything is just better than expected. Even after...

I had not. But one day while lurking through images i came across a picture of  a lingerie collection by la fille d'O. The briefs were sophisticatedly provocative but its how the model moved in them that was screaming freedom. The seed was planted.

It was like that feeling you get when you see something you have to have. That you need to have. But no clue on how on earth is that going to be possible.

That was 2 years ago. I thought it was out of my league. Yes i was intimidated. But i couldn't look away. Desire was making roots.

My interest for undergarments grew. I started reading lingerie blogs. And came across one particular post which was describing the ethical fight the visionary behind la fille d'O was facing. Made me feel like i was on my way to do the same for my life, so i wanted to know more about Murielle Victorine Scherre.

So i peeked around her collections on her website. I was choked and seduced. The wisdom in the sexuality her designs portrayed made me uncomfortable. But i couldn't look away.  The desire was blooming.

My life changed and all of the sudden i was explaining sexuality to my daughter and had to assume my own beliefs. Assume, and practice! The talk had to match the walk. Individuality. Ethics. Love. Lust. Respect. And there i was. Healing. My daughter was teaching me. How to be the woman i needed to be. Even after the storm, the desire was still there.

And then, one day, i had the guts to make a wishlist. Of lingerie i had been lurking on. When i made this list public, la fille d'O contacted me right away. Even reposted my desire.

Now im not a popular lingerie model. Im a former biochemist turned acrobat who became a single mother flamenco dancer and who makes a living working in a boxing gym as a gyrokinesis and kinesiological stretching trainer. Lingerie is a selfish pleasure i shouldn't indulge in. But its who i am. So i indulge. And angels sings in my heart. And they make sweet love to my demons and they cant get enough.

But thats another story.

I ordered Bonte on June's fullmoon. A week later she was home.

The most beautiful packaging i ever laid eyes on. Intact from travelling across the atlantic ocean and through customs. Protected by a solid cardboard envelope, the Belgium asymmetric black package ended up on my Mile End apartment floor. And it was gorgeous. Unexpected. Surprising. Interested in little me! it felt - A personal note was hand written by Annika... to me! I cant decifer it but it felt like a love letter. And you see i never received any love letter... less so accompanied by such an erotic presentation... and even lesser so with anything even remotely close to what was hiding in the multiply folded black silk paper letter.

Bonte.

In all her beauty.

Was laying in front of me.

Finally. I was about to be consumed whole by my desire.

It took me a moment to figure her out. I was touching her so delicately. She was mysterious and building up tension. But when i comprehended how to put her on, what she wanted where, in the right sequence, she embraced my body like a desiring lover. We held there. In bliss. Alone. Sun-setting. Perfect.

I havent recovered yet.

I hope i never do.

Je suis enfin une fille d'O.

So Grateful

....OW....

Tanya set in black S
Sofia set in beige S

OWintimates

(Danemark)

Im not new at life but maybe at satisfying myself. My lingerie addiction represents  exactly that. It was a challenge to first accept this need that i had unfairly labelled selfish and vain. It was an even bigger one to write about my experience wearing lingerie and sharing images of my unperfect body in such lovely pieces. But it has actually revealed itself therapeutic in so many ways. 

Having accomplished a few personnal milestones im realizing that im facing a new one now. Im far from being a haute couture connoisseur or a lingerie expert. What i know about lingerie is only how it makes me feel when i see it, when i touch it, when i put it on my skin, when i move in it and how it leaves me when i remove it. Its a new found intimacy. A self love. But it is also responsible for how differently i carry myself since i have embraced my lingerie fetish.

That being said, i must confess, this review was the hardest to write so far. Discovering what i prefer and what i need about intimates is fun and exciting. Finding out what i like a little less is not so fun. Money issues aside not liking something always brings an amount of guilt back to light. And searching for the reasons why, was i guess, my challenge at this time. Which of course i accepted gladly. I want to continue growing and learning and evolving, and comfort zones are meant to be surpassed because life begins at the end of your comfort zone.

So here is how this Scandinavian company entered my lingerie drawer.

Not sure why, but i wanted my next intimates purchase incognito, new and easy. Do i now regret it? We should never regret. But if im being honest, maybe i am a little. Maybe for the fit. Maybe because i've tasted handmade and customed made lingerie and that intimacy is incomparable. It fits like a glove. It leaves no marks on your skin but the softest pleasures. But when i saw OW under garments, i wanted them because they looked great and chic with an architectural design that seemed great for movement. So again do i regret it? Only for the inflexibility of the fitting. But the more i think of it, the more i know the fit is everything.

So, I ordered 2 sets: a bralette and its matching pantie. From checkout to shipment delivery , 4 long weeks crawled by. No duty fee. All wrapped in individual cellophane sachets.

Always the black set first

So i tried on the black set. First.

The Tanya bralette opens in the front with a thin pretty silver closure. The shoulder straps are thin and delicate, soft and comfortable. They dont cut into the skin at all. They continue to the front following the edge of the bralette cups, creating a harness-like effect, very flattering to my little chest. I usually wear a 34b, so in the company's size chart it represents a Small, but its a little too snugged for my taste. And since the underbust is not adjustable im stuck in need of 2 extra cms. May be if the band was more giving and the elastic band allowing more range... but its not. And it leaves red too tight marks on the sensitive chest skin.

The brief falls high on the hip bones creating longer legs. The large waist band there is very securing for movement. But this time its a little too loose to my taste. So i have to wear it higher than how it was designed for.

Both are made of this black very see through material. It is also very thin. Not in a fragile sense. More in a confidently provocative kind of way. It contrasts with the underbust and waist bands that are thick and opaque. 

Now i was ready for the beige set.

So if you can imagine that same quality of a fabric but in the most gorgeous nude rosé colour. It completly melts with the tone of my skin. Luck? Maybe. I needed some.

Nonetheless, the same sizing dissatisfactions occurred for the bralette; its a bit too snugged for my taste. And the waistband is too loose on the lower hip bones.

They both have the same straps design. The doubling elastic bands wrap the rib cage and the hip bones. The elastic is a bit too rigid. As for the Tanya set, if the elastic was more flexible, had a higher range of motion, it would be more comfortable and probably would also fit a wider range of shapes.

So moral of this story, the aesthetics are sweet but the fit is to be improved . Lingerie is teaching me that sometimes its forever. Sometimes its not. And that's just the way it is. It really is a question of willingness, flexibility, quality and taste.